|Photograph taken by Trevor Fundi|
Dress: Vivo Active Wear
Neckpiece: Maasai Market
Hair: Kinky Weave by Amadiva Beauty Salon
Struggling with different aspects of my physical appearance, be it my face, or my weight and shape, my complexion, and sometimes my hair, has been a thing all my life and it's only recently that I've been starting to feel some semblance of control. I've slowly been taking steps to improve my well being, both inside and out, and I shall break that down and be talking about that in the weeks to come.
|Healthier days in 2011.|
Starting us off, my skin. Now, I've been trying to get my skin to be at it's clearest for a few years now. It's been quite dramatic, to say the least, and quite exhausting. My adolescent years were pretty okay, no issues there, and I wore no make up aside from mascara and lipgloss for the most part but as soon as I turned 21, I experienced the worst break out of acne across my forehead. This later spread to the rest of my face and lasted about a couple of years but it has been a while since my skin has been perfectly clear again. This is what fuelled my dependence on powders and foundations for an even skin tone. Hi 5 to the make up industry my friends. It's not that bad. I do crave having confidence in my bare face, and I do realise this has a lot to do with how I FEEL about myself. That's a work in progress too.
I suffered another horrific break out 3 years ago during a month long stint in Nigeria that resulted in my having to visit a dermatologist upon my return. He attributed the acne to changes in climate, environment, food, and even possibly the fact that my body was having to acclimatize to the travel and change in work schedule. He prescribed some antibiotics and a couple of intensely foul smelling creams and a few months later my skin was much better. But not at 100%.
|Mid 2013. Halfway through the skin treatment. I can't find any pictures of my bare face before.|
Last year, my skin was meh. It was okay, but not particularly great. And by great I mean it wasn't smooth and I still had some scarring. The thing is, you would never catch me without any make up on because my skin mostly resembled leopard print.) I then got onto some hormonal birth control and damn son, all hell broke loose. It was one of those injections that you get once a month. Barely a week in and my face was a nightmare. I quickly made the decision not to continue with that BC and although my skin improved after the hormones wore off, I was left with my jaw line as a problem area with these really painful recurring spots. I did some research and found that acne around the jaw and chin is usually as a result of hormonal imbalances. Now, even though the spots do clear up every once in a while, the scarring is a mess. And when that starts to clear up, boom, a fresh new outbreak comes popping.
I then made the decision last year to try and clear my face using mostly natural products because I just couldn't see myself being permanently dependent on medication or chemicals to keep me looking and feeling my best. I started playing around with face masks, oils, butters and natural remedies that really made a difference and I have now incorporated a couple of other things that, while are not entirely natural, are helping to get me to where I want to be. My skin has honestly not felt or looked this good in years, and I'm excited to see it's progress as I go along. I'm not there yet, but I am definitely heading in the right direction. (The fact that I can now leave my house, or post a picture of myself without a lick of make up on and still feel okay is a huge deal.)
Over the next few posts, I shall break down different elements of my regimen and what exactly it is I have incorporated as well as how and why it is working for me and hopefully provide some insight and advice if you are looking to improve your skin as well. How I feel about myself mentally also has a great deal to do with it, as well as my diet and external factors, and I will talk about that too.